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So, it's happened, New Blog!

Sat, 02 Jul 2011 00:32:00 +0100

Check it out, if you don’t feel betrayed? I don’t really know what the etiquette for this is.

Love you tumblrites xo

MOVE DAYWell, kinda - we move at 5am tomorrow. The house is...

Thu, 23 Jun 2011 11:14:00 +0100

MOVE DAY
Well, kinda - we move at 5am tomorrow. The house is mental. We’re just hiding out in the only empty room, which I spent like an hour hoovering earlier.. So I should probably tell you tumblrites, that this is going to be my last, or possibly penultimate post, we’ll see how things go.

“WHY?” why?

Because I feel ready to move on from tumblr, I’m not arty enough or cool enough to reblog hundreds of awesome pictures that get 9830948937496907390285 notes, and tbh, I just want to write, write crap, write poems, write about my mundane life. And I feel that probably blogspot it more adequate for my needs.

Also, I finished my Alevels yesterday (feel my joy at never having to know anything about biology EVER again!) and I’m moving 150 miles south in less than 24 hours, so I feel that it’s a pretty big shift in the situation of my life and as such a feel like I want to start a new blogging chapter and I just feel like a change from tumblr.

I will post you a cheeky link to my new blog when I write my first post, which I hope will be tomorrow, but failing that - whenever we get our internet working in Kent. If you want boring updates about the moving process check my Twitter - I will be tweeting for want of something more productive to do for the next 24 hours or so.

So now all that is left to say is adieu! Wow, that was pretentious - I somehow feel like I need to make some big overwhelming gesture to say goodbye, but let’s be honest this is just a blog with less than 100 followers - so, y’know, have a picture of some packing boxes.

LOVE YA x

my, uh - simple - diagram of the Oestrous cycle :/

Tue, 21 Jun 2011 17:17:27 +0100

my, uh - simple - diagram of the Oestrous cycle :/

NEW GLASSES. (sozz webcam quality photo)

Mon, 20 Jun 2011 17:16:04 +0100

NEW GLASSES. (sozz webcam quality photo)

just realised

Tue, 14 Jun 2011 18:45:00 +0100

that I’m such a creature of habbit.

When Katie first made me a myspace account I thought it was silly and then a few months later I signed on for the second time and got really into it. Then I got Facebook and I was like yo myspace is so much better, then I got over than and started using Facebook. Then I decided to get Tumblr and posted like one poem, then after a few months Lyndsey was like, ‘you should get tumblr’ and I was like ‘y’know what? I think I might actually have it already’ and here I am now. Then when Sam got Twitter I was like, y’know what why not? and I got it and I swear it was the most boring thing… and now I’m tweetin’ all the time.

I might log onto GnG and see if it’s absence on my internet browser has made my heart grow and fonder. [edit: nah, still doesn’t look particularly interesting]

This is a really dull realisation, but it’s a realisation nonetheless.

Penultimate scene of the Gilmore Girls.

Tue, 14 Jun 2011 15:49:00 +0100

Lorelai: Oh no, I got it
Rory: I know how to work a zipper Mum!
...
Lorelai: I just feel like I need more time
Rory: I know,
Lorelai: I really just feel ambushed, you know? I mean I thought I had so much more time, I thought I had all summer to impart my wisdom about work and life and your future. I just feel like I had something to tell you - Oh, on the bus, make sure you choose a good seat, you know? Because people are creatures of habbit and the seat you pick in the beginning could be your seat for the rest of the year. And make sure you get a window seat honey, because there's so much to see and you might wanna sit in the back of the bus because people there just tend to be more chatty and friendly and I don't know what it is about the front of the bus but people there just tend to be more bossy and uptight it's just been that way since first grade. And honey, and I know what you're gonna say, but just don't wear shorts, okay, no matter how hot it is, it's just not proffessional and all that heat and the sticky vinyl seats, it'll be like ripping a giant bandaid off your thigh everytime you stand up. Don't be too shy, don't be too forward, but don't be too shy, you make a lovely first impression but you really grow on people too.
Rory: Mum
Lorelai: You need ziplock bags, you should have them all the time, they're so handy.
Rory: Mum...
Lorelai: And I'm gonna give you that orange sweater, I know you've wanted it, and you know what, I'm finally gonna give it to you.
Rory: Mum. You've given me everything I need.

So basically, I’ve fallen in love with a Beauty and the...

Fri, 10 Jun 2011 23:49:21 +0100

So basically, I’ve fallen in love with a Beauty and the Beast snowglobe.

It’s a good thing that my posters came down, because I...

Wed, 08 Jun 2011 23:26:29 +0100

It’s a good thing that my posters came down, because I just stuck up all of my history revision notes.

That’s the reigns of three 16th century English monarchs, right there
in 48 A4 pages
and 17,148 words

Tomorrow should be fun.

Because my blog has been pretty text heavy over the past few...

Mon, 06 Jun 2011 14:34:50 +0100

Because my blog has been pretty text heavy over the past few days, I thought I’d give you a video. This is a work done for Springs Dance Company by Susannah McCreight called ‘Bread of Life’ and it’s about the different responses that people have when they approach communion.

Springs is a Christian dance company that runs an apprenticeship year in London which ends in the company tour in the summer, I would LOVE to do this.

Springs Dance Company

I just read your post about you leaving and about Theology. I know in the future that i definitely want to be a minister but I'm doing English Lit...and well so are you in a sorts. What I'm saying is that you have a WHOLE life a head of you. Do what you love because as christians the things which we love the most are the desires which God has placed in are hearts. I know you love English and History and I know you'll have such a fun time learning about it and talking about it. I know you love talking about it because in the conversations we've had its almost always been either about God or English. If you want to study Theology then do it in like 10 years times where you've grown knowledgeable about the world, know what life means, have stood firm in the presence of God and that you are ready for the deep Theology of God. Theology is so deep and so mind blowing that even if you stand firm in God you can still struggle to bear the weight of Knowledge of Theology.
I remember when you and me were talking to Phil at a Klife weekend away about God and it ended up with you nearly crying, even I was taken back at what Phil was saying. I talked to you a few weeks afterwards about why you cried and you said it was because it was like your knowledge of God was being changed and change brings pain, always does. So what I'm trying to say is, GROW into God so much more more in life, you've got a lifetime to grow in him and know more of him before you get into Theology if you ever did.
So if you want to do Theology, you still can, you can even start doing it now but what I'm saying is, grow into God while learning about the world around us first.
Thats what I'm going to do. I know God wants me the be a minister in the future but for now I know God wants me to do what I love which is English Literature. I know that I want to get a Job in either Journalism, or editing or even being an Author afterwards but eventually I'll study Theology and then become a minister. So if you ever wanted to do a course in Theology, you still can, no matter where you are in life.

Mon, 06 Jun 2011 14:25:12 +0100

Yeah I know :) I don’t regret planning to do English and History, just think it’d be kind of neat to do Theology as well! And to be honest, my Mum did chemistry for 30 years before going to Theology college, so I know that there’s plenty of time. I don’t know that I feel a particular call into ordained ministry like you do, but I want to understand it more and more, and I know that God has it all planned out for me when that’s going to happen and everything. Thanks for your encouragement! GB x

Tweet by Sisco Gomez has got my cogs working...

Mon, 06 Jun 2011 12:27:00 +0100

‘Dance agents in the UK are making me laugh! One day preaching about how bad rates are next min your supplying dancers with under paid work?! Just for the record £125-£150 per rehearsal £250 for show dates! Help keep rates at the amount the talent deserves!’

As someone that dances I think I can argue with an, albeit limited, degree of credibility that dancers don’t just need to be paid for the time they spend in rehearsal but all the time and money they spend in and on classes to maintain the right standard for said rehearsals and shows. I wonder if the problem isn’t so much that people don’t know what the going rate for a professional dancer should be, but that it’s all dependant on demand, like any other commercial ‘product’. Footballers for example get paid way more for their time in training/games because the demand for their performance is inherently higher.

Just been making notes on Robert Cohan for my alevels exam on Wednesday, and about how he choreographed work in public during residencies to bring in audiences and interest. I mean, I know dance has come along way since the 1960s and the beginnings of London Contemporary, but it just makes me wonder that with more people going into dance professionally than did 40 years go, the demand on individual dancers must have fallen. So I guess my point is, for rates to be kept at a reasonable level, in the face of increasing competition/decreasing demand the root of the issue needs should be tackled: professional dance needs to bring in a wider paying audience, because to be honest, when I go to see work at The Curve or DeMonfort in Leicester, the only people that I see that I recognise are dancers themselves, with maybe the exception of at a Ballet.

Just a mixture of a few thoughts and a whole lot of desire for procrastination!

it's weird how quickly this has all come around. you'll never guess what my dad said to me after sunday dinner today: "seeing as you want to paint your bedroom, you'll need practice" and so i asked him if he meant what i thought and he said, "yes, the curate's house will need repainting" it was like de ja vu. it was so weird like some massive circle that i've just been through.
it actually seems like it cant have been more than a few months ago that i was helping to paint it with you, yet at the same time it must have been because of all the things we've done together. like when we were camped out on your floor eating pizza after we'd finished painting for the day and then you, me , joey and peter all sat round your portable DVD player and watched the day after tomorrow. and when we were all sprawled all over your cabin floor watching "the holiday" and new years at yours when we played twister and i've never for a ridiculous amount of hours. and of course not forgetting the CYFA sleepover, playing sardines in the church and then falling asleep in the service the next day. i could go on and on i really could. but i think what im trying to say is that i dont think i ever quite realised how much i value having you around. i always loved it but i never really thought about it, and now in two weeks you'll be leaving. i know you'd be leaving to go to York at the end of the summer anyway but it feels like it's too soon and like somehow ive only recently gotten to know you.
i really do think im going to miss you more than you'd realise. and this may sound crazy but i look up to you as a role model, you always seem so strong in your faith and to you it's the most important thing in your life and anyone would be able to tell that just from looking at you. sometimes i feel like im not that strong in mine but then i talk to you and you give me reassurance. i also truly love how you're really not afraid to be exactly the person you are inside and that, no matter what, you'd never change that or hide it for anyone and to be honest i feel like i wish i could do that all the time as easily as you do.
this has turned into the world's soppiest message, and i know that i'll see you before you go, at least on the 19th if not before, but reading your post made me realise how much i will miss you and all of the rest of your family when you're gone and i thought i ought to tell you. xx

Mon, 06 Jun 2011 09:08:49 +0100

SOPHIE SLEATH, YOU ARE ONE OF THE MOST INCREDIBLE PEOPLE I’VE MET IN THE LAST FOUR YEARS. This is an absolutely lovely message, I LOVELOVELOVE that my blog is just turning into a big nostalgia pot!

I found it pretty hard to settle in at Rothley, but you’ve always been so lovely and warm and welcoming and I hope you realise that you’re not getting rid of me, nowhere near! I’m gonna be back to visit whenever I can :)

I think it’s funny that you find me like a ‘role model’ - because you were so completely inspiring when you came back from India - hold on to how you felt about the world and life when you came home, it was so beautiful!

Love you to the moon and back! xo

crazy life.

Mon, 06 Jun 2011 00:37:00 +0100

Couldn’t really think of a more apt title. I’ve been meaning to talk to you lovely people for a while, but I’ve just not been feeling very up to sitting down and being literate. Still, here I am now and I have a few thoughts to share with you.

It’s just my Mum and me and home at the moment, Joey is still down in Falmouth and University and doing splendidly, whilst Peter and Dad are down in Kent with my Uncle working on making my Dad’s new workshop winter proof. So Mum’s just looking after me at the moment, and boy is she doing a wonderful job! It’s frustrating though, because we have all this time (about 10 days I think?) of just us in the house, an I’m really aware that if I’m not hanging out with her, then she’s on her own. Now, don’t get me wrong, my Mum is not a lonely person, about a 1,000,000 people in a 20 mile radius think she’s awesome; the house just feels really empty. I mean, most nights we watch a film or some TV drama together and drink hot chocolate, but during the day I’m sat at my desk pumping out endless revision notes and my Mum’s clearing out the garden or cleaning the kitchen or just generally preparing this house for the move, and I just wish, in all this time we have together we could spend more of it, y’know together. I know everyone is doing exams at the moment, so this isn’t supposed to be a complaint. I’m just aware of how much of a shame it is that this kind of quiet, empty-house, tidying-our-lives-up-for-the-move time is half lost on revision. I guess that was a really long-winded way of making my point!

This morning, we - my Mum and I - visited a small community church in Leicestershire where the Vicar of our old church in Thurnby is now posted and we chatted to him about what’s happening next and what have you. He’s studying English at University at the moment, whilst being the Vicar of a community church, I do not know how he has the time, but he was just saying how much he loves education and learning. I wanna be like that, forever excited to know and understand more! His sermon was really nice as well, he was looking at the Ascension in Luke’s gospel and how the disciples until that point missed on the major point of the Bible and he talked about how easily the church can major on minor points - adiaphora as it is sometimes called (may as well slip in a bit of Reformation revision where I can…) - he referred to women bishops being a minor point, whether I agree or not on that particular issue - I remain undecided as of yet - I liked his point, that though those issues are important, they should not overshadow the fundamental message of the Gospel!

Which leads nicely onto our dinner table discussions. With just my Mum and me at home, dinner time discussions keep digressing onto heavy theological matters - when I say heavy, nothing quite so severe as her massive dictionary of ‘Systematic Theology’ or anything. It got me to thinking that as much as I love English and History and am desperately looking forward to studying them at York (fingers-crossed!) if I could do the whole UCAS process over I would seriously consider Theology, not just because it’s immensely complex and intriguing, but because there is literally nothing more important for me to strive to understand, challenge and accept. I guess in another lifetime.

On a slightly more superficial note, I’m getting my hair cut tomorrow, no-one will notice any difference, but I will know that it is FINALLY going to no longer be wonky at the front!

I think the main moral of this post is that my Mum is awesome.

I have a vague inclination that there was something else that I wanted to mention, but it’s not springing to mind… I guess that this is enough to be going on with! Also, I’ve have 50 pages of Age of Innocence to go for nearly a week now and no consciousness left at the end of revision to finish it, so I’m probably gonna head to bed and do that. I think Wuthering Heights is next on my pile, or maybe A View From the Bridge - we’ll see how it goes.

Love you tumblrites and God Bless!

PS, I feel I should throw in a novelty mention of the boyfriend - Hi Sam!

this is amazing! - someone did a bit of doodling when they were...

Sun, 05 Jun 2011 18:52:44 +0100

this is amazing! - someone did a bit of doodling when they were supposed to be revising me thinks ;)

I feel like I havn’t reblogged anything in ages… I’m getting pretty rubbish at this tumblr thing…

AH WAY COOL, even if your in York we can always talk about what we've been learning. You'll probably get into York so I'll be praying for you.

Sun, 05 Jun 2011 18:49:30 +0100

Thank you! Your friendship really is such a blessing! I’ll be praying for you and all your time in Liverpool :)

I'm staying in LIVERPOOL, more specifically I'll be going to Liverpool hope...there is like 4 universities in Liverpool and Liverpool Hope is the second best. I'll be studying English Literature :D What will you'll be studying?

Sun, 05 Jun 2011 14:46:27 +0100

Oooh, nice! So I’ll be with you in Liverpool if I don’t get my grades for York :D I’m studying English and History :)

OH...its sad that your leaving Leicester....even though i don't exactly live there I can always come back to it as home. Yet your going to Kent :(.....what Uni are you going to anyway? Oh and I know its sad that your room will be so bare but you'll get a new one and you'll decorate it even better. Also, in the future you'll have your own flat/home which you'll decorate and you'll fill it up with all the things you love, as well as people.

Sat, 04 Jun 2011 23:22:23 +0100

Aww, Alex, this is such a lovely message - Bless you!

My first choice uni is York, and my insurance in Liverpool, what about you?

I know, I am excited to be in a new house, Kent is pretty far away though! Scary, but also exciting!

GB x

I wonder...

Sat, 04 Jun 2011 19:42:00 +0100

if when River Song turned up in that creepy scared-of-the-dark episode back in the RTD/Donna days they knew it would magically translate into ‘Melody Pond’, or was it just really lucky they managed to find two half-synonyms that they could pass off as names?

[edit] yeah, so, just checked wikipedia, and Moffat wrote River Song’s first episode… I guess he’s been enjoying this little secret for a while..

So, my room is now half naked.

Sat, 04 Jun 2011 15:03:21 +0100

BEFORE

AFTER

So, my room is now half naked.

I wish frienship bracelets was something that people still...

Sat, 04 Jun 2011 01:01:19 +0100

I wish frienship bracelets was something that people still ‘did’.

here’s a plan, before I move to Kent, I’ll make one for you, if you make one for me ;)